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<h2>so entwined now</h2>
|| Larry Trainor/Negative Spirit. Explicit NSFW. Post 4x03.
<hr>
<p>
<span>Its always difficult to fall asleep these days.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Its especially hard to fall asleep when your best friend is unconscious and you dont know </span>
<em>
<span>why. </span>
</em>
<span>Despite their recent fight, he loves Rita. Appreciates her, adores her. Shes his best friend. Hes - worried </span>
<em>
<span>sick. </span>
</em>
<span>Everything is so, so sick and nothing is okay, and now theres a possibility hes lost Rita for the - fuck, who knows, third time? Everything is happening all at once -- he cant keep up. He just cant, hes banging on the bars of the universes cage, hes begging for the mercy kill.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Less importantly, Mr. 104s words are following him around like a lost stray ghost, lingering in this realm because it cant let go of life, because it wanted something so bad when it was alive that its want seeped into death and placed its roots there. Its following him around, its haunting him, like his personal dark cloud wraith, like his downfall is imminent, like his future ghost self is tailing him, like - like—</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Like a spirit.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Its hard to sleep without them.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>He has Keeg, but its - its different. Its just different. The Negative Spirit had grown into - not a </span>
<em>
<span>comforting </span>
</em>
<span>presence, but a necessary one. They kept him grounded, they kept him unstable. They kept him safe.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>They gave him company. Eternal company, which is all that hes ever craved — he still remembers what they felt like, warm, so warm and crackling even in his form and yet still so soft. So - he deletes the word </span>
<em>
<span>beautiful </span>
</em>
<span>from his mind, erases it, wipes his memory, because it surely doesnt apply here - it was so -</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>He gives in; it was beautiful. He was looking at himself on the surface; in truth he was seeing their true essence, finally bared to him, and his action of touch stripped him of flesh entirely, replacing his integument with vulnerability, with l—</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Look at where vulnerability gets you. Their absence has been agonizing. He spent over sixty years with them, and adjusting to lacking the Spirits presence inside of him is harder than it should be.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>He cannot decipher it - why Mr. 104s comments on his sensuality and memories of the Spirit are embracing in his mind. Its - its not like that, it wasnt like that, and it is a pointless idea to entertain now. Even if — its too late for them, they missed their chance. Wrong place, wrong time. Wrong in its entirety.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Its—</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Oh. Its humiliating, because now his body is - </span>
<em>
<span>reacting. </span>
</em>
<span>Its been notoriously hard to accomplish physical arousal since the accident, but. </span>
<em>
<span>Well.</span>
</em>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>This isnt good.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>(Wrong in its entirety, he tells himself.)</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>(</span>
<em>
<span>You must be devoid of sensuality.)</span>
</em>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>(He doesnt—)</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>(</span>
<em>
<span>And are memories enough to satisfy you?)</span>
</em>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>(He cant cope with this, he cant, not now—)</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Memories are not enough to satisfy him.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Fuck, hes really going to do this. Hes really going to -- but this, too, is agonizing. Maybe he can get rid of his harrowing want and banish the ghastly invading thoughts if he deals with this, if he acknowledges these feelings just once and never again. If he truly gives in.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>In bed, he removes his garments with caution as his fingers shake and tremble. It feels good when he finally touches himself, feels heavenly. Its been a while since hes been able to do this. His hips roll, his eyes roll back, his body lurches. And he allows himself to imagine. He should </span>
<em>
<span>never </span>
</em>
<span>allow himself to imagine.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>It begins as mere imagination. Hes crazed now, desperate - craving - regretting the depths of his suffering, regretting the fact that he never reached out to them - the only being who can be around him unbandaged - for contact when they were actually here. Images flash through his mind, and the pace of his touch is so fast now—</span>
<em>
<span>The Spirit pressing Larry against the wall, running its fingers down his back with an unbearable tenderness that he can nearly feel in reality, until it is able to give him what he really needs, and in his imagination they are just as frantic as he is, in his mind they get overwhelmed inside of him, their thrusts selfish - it would make sense, their first touch ever was three months ago - and then the scenery changes—-</span>
</em>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Hes back in his bed, in his night clothing, and the Spirit is straddling him, hovering just above him with hesitation, and he is not in control of this scenario, and hes still hard, and they look frightened, and oh </span>
<em>
<span>God, oh God. No. No. No. Please, no. Not now. He will never be able to move on from this. No.</span>
</em>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>“Its you,” he whispers, the shock electrifying. He wants to be mad, to yell at them for abandoning him, but his body, his stupid flesh, wont allow him to do anything besides freeze and force his eyes to close, an attempt at hiding his sorrow. “Its you, again. Its you.” He pauses. “Just - why? Why did you do it? I thought - I thought we—I thought we were—something.”</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>The Spirit reaches down and places his hand against his cheek. He leans into it, his nature and instinct is to want and need and desire, and then he realizes - theyre mirroring his final act, their first and last embrace. It should be infuriating.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Four words mist into his thoughts, written in bright glowing messy letters: </span>
<em>
<span>We cared too much. </span>
</em>
<span>Three more in succession: </span>
<em>
<span>You deserved better.</span>
</em>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>His eyes flutter open, he stares up at them, the way they glimmer and illuminate his darkness. You dont get to decide that for me, he wants to say. I knew what I was getting myself into when I left with you, he wants to say, and I was okay with it. The bandages - but you. Its all centered around you, he wants to say, and I despise that, he needs to say. Instead--</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Instead he grips their hips, pauses - </span>
<em>
<span>is this okay - </span>
</em>
<span>and the Spirit presses their “body” down over him. But while they are frantic, they grind against him with experience — have </span>
<em>
<span>they </span>
</em>
<span>imagined this?</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>“Can you, um,” he begins, breathless, “can you feel this? Does it feel good for you? It feels good for me, but I--”</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>The Spirit responds - their crackling quickens, so fast now with their movement. They press their fingers against his chest, crawling and trailing them down his torso - too slow - too slow - teasing - until their hand hovers over his thighs, asking for permission.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>“Please, I—”</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Its supposed to mean </span>
<em>
<span>I dont want to lose you again, </span>
</em>
<span>but in truth its supposed to mean </span>
<em>
<span>please touch me, please, please, please. Youre all I know.</span>
</em>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>They nod and unbutton him. Hes unsure of what to expect - its sex with an alien, after all — he doesnt expect them to just. Lower their frame onto him. Ride him with the same gentle desperate overlay they had in his thoughts. Theyve definitely had the same thought - theyve thought about this, most likely multiple times. They wanted him. How long have they wanted him? </span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Around him, they feel - its beyond description. It feels </span>
<em>
<span>so </span>
</em>
<span>good, better than intimacy with any human, its mystical and otherworldly and approaching intolerable - he wants to remain here forever, he should be able to hide here, he wants this.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>“Pal—”</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>He stops to consider that he just called the person hes having sex with </span>
<em>
<span>pal, </span>
</em>
<span>which is even more humiliating, but they dont seem to mind. Theres adoration in their facelessness, inexplicably. The melody of his moans and breath melds with the sound of their cracklepulse, resulting in a noise almost angelic, almost holy. </span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Hes getting close. He can sense that they are too.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>“Please—fuck—</span>
<em>
<span>please,</span>
</em>
<span>” he exhales, voice unsteady. “I need—you. I need—I think—I—</span>
<em>
<span>fuck—</span>
</em>
<span>I love—”</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>He cant finish the sentence. He doesnt need to. The two words, the acknowledgement, sends them both over, the Spirit tightening and releasing, their light bursting and flickering. His eyes roll almost closed, momentary bliss, fleeting tranquility. He sways and thrusts, the feeling as waves washing over his entire self. When it fades, he realizes what hes done, the ultimate implications. Hes ruined it, he thinks, theyll never visit him again.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Their shoulders sink as they recover, their head bowing down in exhaustion. It was a lot for them. It was a lot for both of them. It was pure.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>They look up at him, their eyes narrowing. A horrific, boundless despair envelops them - he can feel it within them, their connection still viable, their emotion against his own. They reach up to touch him, one final time. He knows its the final time, but he still begs.</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>“Wait, please, dont—”</span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>And then hes back in the harsh disgusting fabric of reality -- his body now relieved, his existence satiated and starved. </span>
</p><p> </p><p>
<span>Larry curls his knees to his chest. Allows himself to sob, to rock back-forth in his suffering. His moans become wails - the harmony remains but now its a harmony of tragedy and destiny and a new eternal hollowing.</span>
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